Greater

It is a great opportunity. I am learning a lot — growing intrinsically. I am becoming more aware of my surroundings and do multiple tasks at the same time. However, I still want to learn more and more and more about this field I have pursued. So, this is what they called Happiness in Work. Even though I’m still young it won’t hinder the excellence I’ll do in all things I commit with. 

Good morning

The sun is  calling in the morning. Its warmth hugging my entirety. Song of birds chirping as choral. As I started the day with a smile and positivity despite of tons of work that are waiting for me. It might not be obvious but God has always given me strength, courage and wisdom to overcome all of these.

I’m starting to lose hope of meeting you..

I’m getting tired of waiting for you..

On the time I needed you the most you weren’t there…

On the crucial part of my life, you’re away…

When I need your shoulders to lean on…

When I need you listening ears…

You’re still not there…

I don’t even know how many miles we’re apart…

I can’t even count how many nights I wished to meet you…

I’m pretty sure GOD is tired of listening with the same prayers…

Of meeting you…

I’m already exhausted… drained…

Waiting for someone I don’t even know…

I haven’t even met…

And, I’m not sure if you even exist…

I need you…

So, pretty please…

Meet me already..

I want to experience genuine happiness…

With you…

Come out now…

My..

Ms.Right

Im-SO-LATE

I stepped out from my comfort zone, learnt how to become confident and to keep the positive mindset. I’m quite adaptive and talkative but for some reason I kept on being isolated. I don’t have childhood friends for they became all distant to me; those cousins of mine aren’t that open to me; I don’t even a bestfriend — a real one; and those college friends have their own businesses. 

I’m here all alone, immersing myself with books and games. I want to extend my social life but myself is stopping me — I’m already used on this tranquility. Time molded me to become independent — to stand by myself without the recognition of others. Ironically, I want want to be recognized and appreciated however because no one could, I became numb.

As days goes by, I’m asking myself just like today “Why am I alone? Am I hard to love? Is there something with me? Am I not enough nor good-looking?” Various questions circling inside my head. What’s wrong with me, really?

I’m already tired of this loneliness. It’s suffocating. I longed for a warm love and sincerity but I’m so unlucky. Until today I’m asking myself. Am I not worthy to be loved? What is Love? What’s the feeling of being loved and unconditionally accepted. 

I’m scared of my future. But, I’ll keep my heads high and smile. Regardless of this trivial adversary, I’ll liven without regrets. Whether, I’ll be loved or not. I’ll just put all my faith to God’s right time.

Starting over again

As we grew old, we experience changes; in life, views and personality.Those unchangeable things will suddenly melt into something brand new, this transformation will either be a good or bad one.

As I took step to a new journey in life and have widen my vision to a greater landscape. These unfamiliar world. Full of uncertainties. While, here I am, half scared and half excited. Scared of those big failures I might face, of those ordeals I might encounter at the same time, strong-willed to learn new things, to be knowledgeable onto the field I eagerly pursue.

I’m trying to adapt, gradually, I’m getting used to. In a new environment, I’m blind, slowly getting sight of the real world. But then, I smiled wholeheartedly, I love this. I want it. To learn and be well-honed individual. These is the start of creating my future, the beginning of… the real step, a walk into life.

Paradise

I stumble onto something complex and unexpected. I was blinded of lies and false hopes that blocked my eyesight to see the beauty of my surroundings. The flowers bloom as spring brought another start for nature, the trees dances happily while various birds singing orchestrally, wind blows bringing forth the fragrance and fallen petals of blossoming flowers and rivers in tranquility calms the hot rays of sunny which resulted to astonishing rainbow symbolizing how colorful life is. 

Failures and rejections were part of our life however it shouldn’t be considered a burden instead a encouragement and strength for us to walk forward and trail the rough and thorny road of the real world. No matter what happens I can’t change the past anymore but it’s never too late to change the end-result. There are always ways to amend those mistakes. Somewhere in my life I didn’t know that despite of the cruelty and corruption of the outside world. There is always a paradise waiting for all of us. The world may be the living hell but our experience will always change if we surrender ourselves to God and seek for His guidance and protection. Paradise.