The Dawn of all Happiness, the Night of all Daylight, the Opposite of Faith & the Feelings after Love.

Negative emotions swirling around my path to retribution. In all sides, there’s no hope but darkness. Numbing coldness chills through my bones; no warmth. Silence. It’s all about tranquility but not as relaxing like we’ve all aiming for. Deafening silence. Loneliness. I’m blinded by these darkness. Rejection.

I closed my eyes it’s black even if it’s open nothing could be seen. Whispers. Murmuring in my mind, “Why are you alone?”, “You’ve been forsaken”, “You’re pitiful”. I didn’t accept those voices “No!” I still have them… but then I pointed a place… but then I saw. Darkness. Nothing. I cried. But no one could see. I screamed but no one was able to hear.
Darkness just accompany me. You’re my one last friend.

Goodbyes

Goodbyes. The hardest to say, saddest to feel and painful to hear. Relationships end so as people dies. However, it is unbearable to say goodbye to the living. Wherein, you’ll part ways and seperate paths to trail.

When we go to separate fields of expertise; different industry; miles apart places; breakups. We leave our friends and colleagues, it is inevitable especially when one is pursuing a higher position or opportunities. I’m experiencing these.

I may seem apathetic in all social relationships and discussions but in fact I was the one who’s seriously concerned about them. I’m giving more than I could; the passion to success. Unfortunately, most of the times I fail to deliver it properly. There are always lapses and shortcomings that makes me feel distressed.

I want to make it perfect and proper as it is my responsibility as well as my credibility is at stake. Failures indeed strengthen us, hammering us until we get broad and impregnable. But, there are still heat that could melt us down which in this case our emotions.

No matter how hard we got sharpened, goodbyes are still mentally and emotionally inflicting us through. So, I will cry slightly then move on. As if it’s easy.

Goodbyes

Goodbyes. The hardest to say, saddest to feel and painful to hear. Relationships end so as people dies. However, it is unbearable to say goodbye to the living. Wherein, you’ll part ways and seperate paths to trail.

When we go to separate fields of expertise; different industry; miles apart places; breakups. We leave our friends and colleagues, it is inevitable especially when one is pursuing a higher position or opportunities. I’m experiencing these.

I may seem apathetic in all social relationships and discussions but in fact I was the one who’s seriously concerned about them. I’m giving more than I could; the passion to success. Unfortunately, most of the times I fail to deliver it properly. There are always lapses and shortcomings that makes me feel distressed.

I want to make it perfect and proper as it is my responsibility as well as my credibility is at stake. Failures indeed strengthen us, hammering us until we get broad and impregnable. But, there are still heat that could melt us down which in this case our emotions.

No matter how hard we got sharpened, goodbyes are still mentally and emotionally inflicting us through. So, I will cry slightly then move on. As if it’s easy.

#one Random

Everyone have their own ways of enjoying life, some might do mountain climbing, surfing, rave parties, travel etc.,. But, in contrary to this norm, introverts enjoys life with themselves like reading books, music and activities that enable them to be alone.

While, people are having a good time socializing with people. Here I am, enjoying my time with books; with myself. If you may ask me if I like it, no, it’s hard to be alone especially in times you seek someone whom you could laugh with; with common wavelength of interests and compatibility.

The world will continue rotating as our life moves forward endlessly. Along the road we will meet people; some might teach us, step us, love us and stay. It isn’t easy to find people who could understand our weirdness, our unique personality.